I will miss you daddy

Have you ever had a day when you have felt both saddness and happiness at the same time? 

Well today was one of those days for me.  

Today my 94 year old dad passed away.  It wasn't too much of a surprise when I got the call from my brother.  We were kind of expecting it to happen soon.  But it is still a little 

shocking when you hear the words that your parent has died.  

So, this has been a day of mixed emotions for me.

I'm sad because I wont get to see him again in this life.

Sad that I didn't get to spend more time with him the past few years.

Sad that my kids didn't know him better.

Sad that he died alone without me or my brothers with him.

Sad that we all have to get older, (which is starting to scare me a little bit.)

BUT:

I'm happy that he isn't miserable and lonely any more.

Happy that he is reunited with my mom and his parents and brothers and sisters, etc. (Can you just imagine the party they had as they welcomed him home?!!)

Happy that we got his house cleaned out and everything else taken care of last summer so we don't have to worry about it now.

I'm so Happy that Joe and I got to see him at Christmas.

Happy that I was able to tell him how much I love him and hug him and kiss him just 3 weeks ago.

Happy that he was as healthy as he was right up until the end and that he died peacefully.

And so happy to have the gospel and the knowledge that our family can be together forever.

Today I've been thinking about him alot and I have so much to be grateful for.

I'm so grateful to have had the greatest dad in the world.

Grateful that he taught me so many wonderful things.

Grateful that I was his special little girl that he called "Toad".

Grateful that I had him in my life for 51 yrs.

I celebrate his life, his accomplishments, his example, his love, his legacy.

My life has truly been blessed to have "Wimpy" for my dad. 

I dedicate this to him.

Dad, I will miss you but I look forward to the day when we can see each other again.

Dad, I love you tons!  Oh . . . and will you tell mom hi for me and that I love her & miss her too when you see her!!